The first man I loved… My daddy… My daddy left me… The first man I loved loved something more then me… He let it take over … He love himself and his drugs… He was selfish… I learned to love and to long a for a man at that moment… The pattern… the cycle continues… I love and long for a man that will love me… I love a man my husband… He’s selfish and says I should be ok with that because I already knew he was selfish…. Deep down I am ok with that… That’s what I’m used to… Selfish love not unconditional but only concerned with self… It hurts… It’s painful… This is not love… This is torture… This is stupid… I have to love me better than that… But all I know is to give my love away… To someone who doesn’t deserve it… My friends say I’ve got to start loving me… Everybody has the answer… Nobody can tell me how… How do I love me… How do I keep it all for me when he, my daddy, taught me to give it away and hope that my love would make him better… But it never did… It never will… Now there are 2 of us in this world that don’t know how to love the right way… Me and my daddy… I’m scared for my daughters… How can I teach them to love themselves when I don’t know how to love myself
Saved by the light.
Students at Gordon Parks High School in St. Paul have reason to celebrate this month—it’s the centennial of the school’s namesake. Photographer, author, and film director, Parks came to St. Paul as a teenager in 1928. He attended Central High, but was often homeless and never graduated. Photography proved to be his salvation. “I saw that the camera could be a weapon against poverty, against racism, against all sorts of social wrongs,” Parks said. His first big break came as a fashion photographer for the Frank Murphy store in downtown St. Paul; he eventually became one of Life magazine’s legendary photographers. The multi-talented Parks also wrote poetry, novels, memoirs and screenplays, and directed 10 films, including Shaft.
Pictured above: Parks once worked at the St. Paul Hotel as a bus boy. Today, his portrait hangs beside other famous Minnesotans in a place of honor inside the hotel.
Ok so I am just starting out in this nail art thing… And I love it…. But doing your natural nails everyday or even every other day has its perks and its problems… Lets start with the perks… 1st your nails are always going to be beautiful and well manicured if you do… 2nd you have a great chance at getting rid of all those hangnails and dead cuticles the more you work with you cuticles and moisturize them the better they look and the better your hands look… 3rd for me it is relaxing and fun… it is a time when I don’t have to think about any of the crap I have going on in my life that stresses me out…
Now on to the problems the chemicals are strong if you use acetone every day it will dry out your nails and cuticles but that’s where your product selection comes into play… 2nd dry nails are weak nails plain and simple… 3rd it takes patience and time to manicure your nails properly, to get them where you want them length and strength wise, and to perfect your craft!
Lets talk about product selection… I know that just starting out this hobby/passion can be a bit expensive but you deserve it… Treat yourself! If you want it make it so… Some of the cheaper products on the market are fine and work well but like the saying goes… You get what you pay for! For me I love sache vita topcoat and I use Sally Hanson hard as wraps base coat to help prevent my nails from chipping and breaking… So far so good… my favorite polishes are made by orly… They go on smooth and dry fairly quickly… I also love Essie polishes too but as much as I like them my wallet doesn’t 😂. Enough of my ramblings follow me on Instagram @My_NAILstory for pics and to watch my progression ✌
So I will be tuned into the Super Bowl this year exclusively for KING BEY!!!!!!!! Omg!!!! I CAN’T fFREAKING WAIT!!!!!
In real Iife who really says “i know it might not work out and all; but you gonna marry a ni&&a or what?”…Too funny!!!!! Gotta love scrappy!